Doctor Knows Best?
Quotes from Abortion “Doctors”

– They [the women] are never allowed to look at the ultrasound because we knew that if they so much as heard the heart beat, they wouldn’t want to have an abortion.
–Dr. Randall, former abortionist

– Even now I feel a little peculiar about it, because as a physician I was trained to conserve life, and here I am destroying it.
-Dr. Benjamin Kalish, abortionist

 – You have to become a bit schizophrenic. In one room, you encourage the patient that the slight irregularity in the fetal heart is not important, that she is going to have a fine, healthy baby. Then, in the next room you assure another woman, on whom you just did a saline abortion, that it is a good thing that the heartbeat is already irregular… she has nothing to worry about, she will NOT have a live baby… All of a sudden one noticed that at the time of the saline infusion there was a lot of activity in the uterus. That’s not fluid currents. That’s obviously the fetus being distressed by swallowing the concentrated salt solution and kicking violently and that’s to all intents and purposes, the death trauma… somebody has to do it, and unfortunately we are the executioners in this instance.
– Dr. John Szenes, abortionist

 – I got to where I couldn’t stand to look at the little bodies anymore.
– Dr. Beverly McMillan, former abortionist

What has happened to our society when the men and women who perform these horrific acts can say this and the abortion industry not be affected?  Pray to end abortion.
God bless,
Chloe M. 

Burden or Beauty to be Revealed?

” You also say ‘Oh! What a burden!’ and you scorn it, says the Lord of hosts.  You bring in what you seize, or the lame, or the sick.  Yes you bring it as a sacrifice.  Shall I accept it from your hands?  Cursed is the deceiver who has in his flock a male, but in his sacrifice offers the Lord a gelding.  For I am a King and I, says the Lord of Hosts, shall have my name be feared among the nations.”
                                 – Malachi 1:13-14
     Sometimes we can look upon our current vocation as a burden.  We are so caught up in anticipation of the beauty that is to be revealed that we fail to see the beauty around us now. 

     We then can find ourselves bringing crippled sacrifices.  We claim that we have given our whole selves to God, but we reserve a little for ourselves.  Yet how can God give us the best when we are keeping our best from Him?

     Instead of always looking towards the future in hopes of boyfriends, girlfriends, courtship, dates, proposals, and weddings, how about we look around and see the beauty of being single?  Have we realized the gift of having time to fully devote ourselves to the Lord? 
     Last night in my Bible time with God, I was just sitting there and talking with Him about things that had happened over the weekend.  Not talking AT Him, but WITH Him.  And I caught a glimpse of the peace that it feels like to give your entire love life over to God.  And let me tell you, it’s incredible. 

     This is an incredible time to strengthen our personal relationship with the most important person in our life : Christ.  Pope John Paul II said, “The more you cling to Jesus, the more capable you will become of being closer to one another.”  When your practice for loving another human being in a way you have never loved a human being before, who better to practice loving than Christ?  

     A three fold chord is not easily broken.  What an incredible bond you and your future spouse will find when you meet and are bound together by a common love of the Lord!
God Bless you all,
Chloe M. 

They Exist

Tonight my sisters and friends went down to Lawrence for a Regency/Jane Austen dance.  Filled with a lot of fun (although a little more complicated than last year) dances and conversation, all of us had an incredibly fun time. 

Yet more awesome than the dancing, something we only get to experience about once a year, was an interaction with a certain young man who set the bar for how all girls should be treated.

This young man asked many girls to dance – some who had been sitting out due to lack of partners.  He was courteous and pleasant to everyone there.  He thanked his partner for the dances.   He had made an effort in getting ready for the evening and was dressed in a black suit with dress shoes and a tie.  While his actions during the dance were both memorable and commendable, his actions after the dance were even more so.
While us girls and Dad were getting ready to head out for the night, he had walked out with his coat on (by the way, gentlemen, if you wish to impress a girl, wear a wool trench coat and a fedora).  He held the door open for  the girls and offered to take one of our plates that we were taking out.  After walking us to the car, he asked if he could open the door for me.  I replied of course, and made sure to thank him. 

Dad later informed us that, as he was talking to the young man when all of the girls had gotten into the car that he had always been taught by his mom to open up doors and carry things for girls.  It was usually unacceptable by the girls though.  So for us to thank him for his chivalry was not the usual reaction.

BOYS:  Please understand that if you want to make a girl feel like a million bucks, treat us like a lady.  Open the door for them (in the car and in buildings).  Ask them if they need help carrying things.  Walk them to their cars if it is dark.  The reason this is so impressive is because it is so rare.  

GIRLS:  Appreciate the guy’s efforts.  Like our situation tonight showed, gratitude is often not the usual reaction.  It will make the guy’s day if he knows that what he does to go the extra mile is appreciated.  You have to make sure that you are acting like a lady to be treated so, though.  If you are throwing yourself at a guy and doing the pursuing yourself, he doesn’t feel that he has to treat you like someone special. 

Ultimately, it comes down to this.  If you think that there are no guys out there who will treat you like a lady, then think again.  They are out there.  They exist.  So (for guys) be that gentleman and (for girls) thank them.
God bless you all!

Chloe M. 

Welcome Conversion Diary readers! As you’ve probably heard, Jen is in hospital with bilateral pulmonary embolisms. Please keep her in your prayers! She’s currently awaiting test results and in the process of making treatment decisions but I know she plans on updating you all soon!

Today is a day of rejoicing – I am done with senior year except the last
two quarters of my English course. 

Strangely, I have been finding an incredible amount
of time to read – my sister showed me these books,
and I haven’t been able to put them down.
If you haven’t done this yet, you have to:Patron Saint Generator
It generates a saint to be your adopted patron for the year.
I picked (or was picked by?) Blessed Miguel Pro.  He was
a martyr in the Mexican revolution, and was arrested
and killed.  We know the most about him through written
letters to the fellow believers in Mexico, a form of
inner-journalism. hmmmm….


 This Sundays is the annual Regency dance in town.
We are able to learn how to dance similar to
the scenes that you could see in the Jane Austen movies.
If only I could figure out what I’m going to wear.


The best thing about working at a bank?
Two words: Federal Holidays. 
I was able to enjoy New Year’s Day with my
family.  We stayed up ’til 9:30pm with the
little kids and watched The Avengers.
Time well spent.

I was listening to my favorite radio show (Brant on Air1)
and he was saying how his new year’s resolution is
to talk to more people at the gym.
I’m sorry – everyone at the gym thinks I am a
total introvert (and a typical homeschooler) since
I’m pretty sure I have no uttered a single word
to a non-family/friend in there.
Do you socialize at the gym? 
Enlighten me!

Crushes…..Good or Bad?

     “Oh my word.  He looked at me.”

     “Now there is a guy who I could walk down the aisle to.”

     “But do you think he likes me?”

     Welcome back to Chloe’s blog.  Joining us is our old friend and semi-regular.   You all know it, you all love it…..the crush.  It seemed that everything was going wonderful in your faith life and your decision to give your love life over to God when this wonderful person (or is it an angel in disguise?) walked into Church and caught your eye.

      It’s love at first sight.  But before you go over to introduce yourself, and after you’ve planned out what color your bridesmaids will wear and how you would do your hair for the wedding, may I recommend that you stop and ponder the age-old question:  Is having a crush a bad thing?

     The answer: Sometimes.  “Well thanks.  You are so specific and helpful,” you answer.  There are five steps to determine whether your crush is crazy, obsessive, and not pleasing God.
These five steps were laid out by Anna Sofia and Elizabeth Botkin, co-authors of my new favorite book, It’s (not that) complicated: how to relate to guys in a healthy, sane, and biblical way.    

Step one:  Father, let MY will be done.  God loves you SO much.  Really, He does.  To show our love for God, we have to trust him.  So we die to ourself in the constant struggle to say, “Let THY will be done.”  When we give into the struggle and decide that it is our life, and thus, our love life, we are putting a certain attractive person over what God wills for our life.  What does that boil down to?  A crush is unhealthy if you are worshipping the object of your affection as a false god.

Step two:  He/She is mine.  Though it’s great that you think that this person is your perfect match, that you both understand each other so well, and that your children are going to be the most beautiful that the world has ever seen… have no right to monopolize his/her time if you don’t have a wedding ring on your finger.  True love (not puppy love, infatuation, or lust) really wants the best for the other person.  So if you really love this person, it means giving up your notion of what is best in exchange for God’s better plan for the both of you.

Step three: Letting her lead / taking command.  In the way God created relationships to be, the man is the initiator and the woman is the chosen.  But when the girls do good things only to make her look like holy wife material when the guy is around, this is not being the chosen.  This is saying, “Look at meee!  I would make such a good wife!”  vs.  the correct approach of doing good things as though no one is watching.  As a young woman, you cannot pick the guy to pick you.      

Step four:  Hello!  Welcome to our imaginary house.   Your future with a young man / young woman is not guaranteed unless you are married.  So when we build our whole life around something that could-maybe-possibly-if everything falls in place-if he does the thing I want him to do possibility that you two might end up together is not relying on God.  For all you know, you could be someones wife (not his) and he could be someone else’s husband (not hers).

Step five:  My heart made me do it.  Just because your heart beats fast every time he/she walks in the room does not mean that you are destined for each other and this. is. love.   It also doesn’t mean that your mind can take a back seat and let your heart do the driving.  The inner struggle in dealing with a crush has nothing to do with the guy who looks like he could be the lead singer in one direction.  It has everything to do with being satisfied as being a daughter / son of God.

     What do you think?  Do you have a crush that you need to
re-evaluate?  Let me know in the comments below!

God bless,

Chloe M.